I know I have high expectations, probably too high but i just can't help needing and wanting to be cared for. For the people in my life to be there for me in the moments I need them to be without me having to ask for it. When you have to remind or even ask for someone to care it takes away the action.

Today is the one year anniversary of my step-dad's death and only one person acknowledged it(at 7pm on Facebook, which again kind of takes it away when you live 5 minutes away and you do own a telephone)My husband didn't even try to remember. It was a day about him (again) and he actually gave me shit for something I had done with our daughter yesterday (homework stuff).It wasn't until I lost my patience and screamed at him did he remember.

I know I'm a grown woman but I still have that little girl who needs to be taken care every once in awhile. Since I lost my mom and Pete, there is just no one who thinks of me before they think of themselves. My life has become the typical cliche of me taking care of everyone else and no one even thinking that I'm not always strong. That maybe I need to be the weak one. That maybe for one day I deserve it to be about me and that I need to be taken care of.

But then again, maybe that's just me and my high expecations.